Music is the Key...to the Past

i think i remember writing in my first diary..."y is music a key to the soul? how come it has such an affect on people?"
i guess that's why we haf animes like "rahxephon" where song determines the fate of the world. or books like "the wayfarer redemption" where music is a power

i also remember thinking life is a story, i guess everyone could write a book about their life and at least get a few tears from their readers. but in the end does it really matter wat was left behind in the past...? i mark my life wid my diaries. when one is finished, i leave it off with a song to refelect my years of the book.
Book 1 (gr 6-9): Tooi Kono Machi de
Book 2 (gr 9-10+summer i kno i wrote a lot...): Nokuta-n
Book 3 (present): dunno yet, hafnt wrote a lot

well, there's so many stages to go thro, it's kinda sickening, cause i kno no matter wat their b so many challages ill hafta face, and that there'll never b an end to the tears and struggles. Music reflects these things..maybe that's y we like it so much, music refelcts our life, whether it b anger, sturggle, happiness, love...the end of the world? lol...words can only tell so much *sighs* all this emotional struggle. yeesh, if i was fighting at least id b able to see my apponent.

i wonder wat ill b like all wrinkled and old. but i kno ill miss my youth. a lot. maybe....i wont live to b old...^_~ hahahaha, then i wont hafta b all wrinkley. psh, w/e happens. ill make sure i dun haf a *normal* life...which i dont think i do...^-^
i remember in the past id always b waiting for something, searching for something that would come to me in the future. when i let go of Book 1, i let go of the waiting, and the song. but just because i dont sing the song, doesnt mean it's not still wat makes me, so...somewhere within me there's a song that searches for that answer, that waits for that day...will it b tomorrow? i dont kno, but ill promise to hold onto wat i feel each day,
and live the future that blooms
in tomorrow.

~HoSHi*